If I’m honest with myself the ‘but why God?’ question is in the back of my mind a fair bit lately. Particularly this last month as the head pain is relentless.
The internal dialogue usually goes from a “but why God?” to a “Don’t you care?”.
And of course I know he does, I mean he died for me. He suffered for me. But I need to preach this truth to myself over and over again.
But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ — by grace you have been saved. (Ephesians 2:4–5)
I’m not as articulate as I once was so preaching to myself usually is:
“Yes you are in pain, but He saved you Vee!!!!!! He cares, oh he cares so much for you.”
When I cry out to him, God has been faithful. He has reminded me of himself, that he is my strength and refuge. It’s not an exact answer to the “but why God?” question, but this I know and the Bible tells me so -Jesus loves me and he is with me in the storm.
I’m thankful for many things that help me to change my “why God/don’t you care?”, into a “but God….”.
- Sunday sermons that point me to Jesus & remind me that God hears us.
- Testimonies of other Christians, both local & overseas, in this present time or in the past. People like Kristen Wetherell.
- Listening to songs….. Lamentations 3:22-23 (as sung by Colin Buchanan) reminded me that I am not consumed (by head pain) for God’s compassion never fails, His love is new every morning! I’m also currently listening to “It’s so sweet to trust in Jesus” on repeat.
What are some things that remind you “but God….”?